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A Collection of Unfinished Sketches

by Aaron J. Shay

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When we were young, our world was no bigger Than the foot prints that we made The years have gone by and now we call them "history," But still here you have stayed. And I'm sure you've got your reasons For watching the passing seasons As they all fall down, But you've got to leave your hometown. There was a time I thought I knew nearly everything That I could expect to know, But the further from home my poor feet have carried me The smaller I seem to grow. There's so much that I have seen, Some of it sacred and some obscene. Don't you let yourself down; You've gotta leave your hometown. You gotta leave your hometown Leave your hometown Leave your hometown Leave your hometown You don't have to leave it for long Just leave it by far- Catch a ride on a passing ship, Follow someone else's star. Just a thousand miles away… Pack a bag, let's leave today, Leave your hometown! You gotta leave your hometown. If you come with me, we'll find ourselves a place where Nobody knows our names You and I will learn a few new ways to choose family And kindle a couple of flames We'll attend many grand occasions, And meet strangers of all persuasions Wearing suits and gowns, Who all left their hometowns. You gotta leave your hometown Leave your hometown Leave your hometown Leave your hometown You don't have to leave it for long Just leave it by far- Catch a ride on a passing ship, Follow someone else's star. Just a thousand miles away… Pack a bag, let's leave today, Leave your hometown! You gotta leave your hometown. And then someday, when you've had your fill You will finally return To the streets you wore so thin with walking, to the Good things that you've earned. Maybe nothing will look the same… And maybe this ain't the place you came From, but nothing's torn down: You left your hometown.
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Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin Winter, winter, come away Come again some other day Don't raise the wind, don't rock the sea, Don't take my love away from me. Say your prayers to the moon Nighttime's gonna be here soon Say your prayers to the sun Daytime won't tell anyone Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin She takes a step towards her love He says "one step ain't good enough" She cries out, "Won't you come to me?" He says, "What kind of love would that be?" The temple has come crashing down, Let's rebuild in another town And when that temple's set aflame We'll learn to play another game Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin Wisdom comes, wisdom goes Wisdom asks what madness knows Demons play while angels sing You and I dance in the faerie ring Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin Put another nail in the coffin, love Put another nail in the coffin
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Don't you know the road that we are walking? We've been this way before. This valley has watched our passing through A thousand times or more. Maybe, when the planet turns to night, We'll end up somewhere new No more habits slowing down our hands We've got too many things to do. Tonight will be different Tonight will go up in flames New rules remain to be written And we'll use different names If Yesterday finds us Get ready to run If Tonight doesn't change us, Yesterday will have won. Is there something you've wanted, But you didn't dare to request, Or maybe you weren't certain, Or you wanted me to guess? I'll drop my last pretensions If you follow my lead We'll start getting what we want Because it's more than what we need. And, Tonight will be different Tonight will come crashing down New stories are gonna be written about Our victories of renown. And if Yesterday finds us, Get ready to fight, 'Cause if Tonight doesn't change us, Yesterday might. It's a new moon tonight Tonight our flesh will bear a different mark Tonight will be our candle in the dark Let's make our stand at the top of the hill If Tonight doesn't change us, tomorrow never will
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I'd rather be anywhere but here, This place where land mines are Scattered like confetti, This place where all the Joyful nights be- -Come so cold and Sharp, just like a Knife left in the snow, Where friendship turn its coat at the drop of a hat, Where love turns on a dime, Where sour tastes await inside The finest of meals… And if I had a leg to stand on, I would walk away. I'd rather be anywhere but- Anywhere but here, This place where footsteps Threaten to become thunder, This place where a dark and empty room is Better than one brightened by a Fierce and blinding anger, Or the gray and lonely sadness that follows behind, This place where hearts become still, Where tiny scabs are picked at By unwelcome and unwashed hands… And if I still knew the way out, I would open a door. I'd rather be anywhere but- Anywhere but- Anywhere but here, This place where silence is the Best that you can hope for, This place where all the Monsters in our Closets they have Crept into our mouths, and now They only come out When we choose to talk, This place where no one's happy but there's no exit, Where skin is fragile, Where the echoes of songs we used to sing Have almost totally faded. And if I had a leg to stand on, I would walk away. And if I still knew the way out, I would open a door. And if I still had wings, I would've flown a long time ago. But instead, here I sit. But instead, here I wait. Here I wait, for the fire to come.
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It's all right, it's all totally fine It's not as if I wish you still were mine It's not as if I want you back at all That's now why I had to call. The breakup was so diplomatic, after it all, What a lovely change of pace! There were some boxes, there was a moving truck, Now I'm alone in my own place, Alone with the memories And the canceled plans, And the empty spaces Where something ought to be, like A water color painted by a mutual friend A tattered coat you will never mend A couple of letters I will never send Because I'm much too kind A couple of records by The Doors A Tom Baker scarf I left on your floor A notebook full of so much more Of the things that I left behind It's all right, it's just totally fine It isn't that I wish you still were mine There's just something missing from my wall And that's why I had to call Some of my favorite neckties never made it out But it's no problem! I've got so many. Some of my books are still there in your shelves, But not one of them cost me a penny. But, you know I hate it when Good books just become a decoration. Will you please try to read them once in a while? A water color painted by a long lost friend A vintage shirt you will never mend A few dozen letters I will never send Because I'm much too kind A couple of records by The Shins My great grandfather's rolling pin A notebook listing all of my sins and All of the things I left behind It's all right, it's just totally fine It isn't that I wish you still were mine There's just something missing from my wall And that's why I had to call It's all right, it's just totally fine It isn't that I wish you still were mine- I don't need anything from you, I don't need anything at all, I don't need anything I can't replace
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Feel the carpet under your feet Feel the cold and feel the heat Feel the texture of the stairs Voices vibrate in the air Feel the tiny hairs on my hand Now you can Now you can Feel the chill of concrete Hear the noises of the street The flash of lightning in the sky Hear the planet as it sighs, Will you come to understand? Now you can Now you can You are coming alive You will open your eyes You are coming alive Do you hear it? Do you see it? Do you feel it? Do you? Do you? Flex your fingers, lift your arms Feel the sun, face the storm You were made to be young Without heart and without lung You may struggle and strive But you are coming alive You will open your eyes There's no better time to arrive You are coming alive You are coming alive You are coming alive
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It's not enough to have some love, Be it great or be it small; The size of wing won't mean a thing When the engine starts to stall. It's not enough to have some love: It won't seal what has been cracked. All the parts of this crooked little ship All come from older, crumbling wrecks. These days, my feet have grown so uneasy, Especially near the place you stand. There is no safety on the ground anymore, but Who says I ever have to land? Yes, my darling, I'm your astronaut, Fueled by a cold ambition; Where I go, you cannot follow, so Take control, and hit ignition! Weightless living for so long Makes it easy not to care; From where I float and look around, You wouldn't know that Earth is there. But no matter how far away I fly, This vessel's hardly even mine. You are the engineer, I'm just the pilot; I float away by your design! Yes, my darling, I'm your astronaut, Blinded by the blast behind me! Jettison is not an option, I Go where my momentum takes me! You don't have to watch me as I follow my trajectory, But as my travels split the sky, I'll hope you're doing well. Motion makes me sick, but so does stillness, stillness in excess; Even if I burn, I'll leave behind a tale to tell! Yes, my darling, I'm your astronaut, Blinded by the blast behind me! Jettison is not an option, I Go where my momentum takes me! Yes, my darling, I'm your astronaut, Flying towards the night before me! Watch as I approach the speed of light, Never aging, always falling! Never aging, always falling!
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There's a place I know Where the cottonwoods grow And every summer, A blizzard of cotton drifts down It's there in the pocket Of a tiny big town Just a little old house on a hill Where the cottonwoods grow There's a place I've seen Somewhere in between The little old farmhouse And the streets where the high-rises climb It's there in the pocket Of some other time Just a little old house on a hill In a state evergreen And don't look too close at The cracks in the pavement Or the hedges all grown too tall Think of the cities and Kingdoms we dreamed of When our visions were grand But our bodies were small Try to remember it all There's a place I know Where the cottonwoods grow Yes, they've outlived the orchards Where the plum trees once sheltered the quail Though my body is aging Though my memory fails There's a big quiet house on a hill Where the cottonwoods grow.
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released January 1, 2013

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Aaron J. Shay Seattle, Washington

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Sci-fi storyteller and banjo balladeer. I believe in the good kind of apocalypse.

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